Betrayal

This is a special and more personal entry.

I have not been writing new posts these last days. I had focused on polishing my website and removing any obvious mentions of the company. In fact, I might even remove the “How to support me” section, since no matter what, any link related to them gets removed. That is the main and constant reason why I feel so down every day.

However, something else happened recently as well. As you could tell, I do not accept visitors from the company anymore. This is because, despite almost all of them having acted so politely, I still have the hanging memory of the wickest one I met.

Decades ago, I used to think I was friends with a guardsman. We talked a lot about our thoughts and our feelings, incluiding my plans to sue the company. He would even gift or pay things for me. For a while, he was my best friend. Well, that is what I thought.

Around Easter, I planned on confessing my feelings to Cruz, the female friend I have a huge crush on. Before doing that, I had told him how much I love her. I do not remember his reaction.

Days before, I found out someone ratted me out to the company and you-know-what happened.

I was so dumb. I am so dumb. I thought this would never happen to me.